Second Baby worries…

So baby no2 is baking nicely and I’m getting bigger by the day, well it feels that way anyway. The due date is fast approaching and we are all so excited to meet the fourth family member. When I found out I was pregnant I think like most people I felt a wave of emotions, excitment, worry, denial, guilt, happiness, the list could go on. Although I always wanted siblings for Otis I never really knew when I wanted that to be. I already have a baby and I’m having another one? How is that going to work is a question I keep asking myself.

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I feel guilty that I soon want have as much time for Otis as I once did. I don’t want him to feel like he’s lost me or doesn’t get  a look in so I’m constantly thinking of ways to stop that from happening. Even though really theres only one of me and soon going to be two of them so I’m just going to have to do my best, like all mums do.

I feel terrified about giving birth again, like I can’t even talk about that subject for too long because it scares me so much. Saying that I couldn’t be more excited for that first meeting of my new baby. I think anyone who has had children would relive that moment over and over. It really is the best feeling in the world so I feel so excited and lucky that I’m soon going to experience that again and this time it won’t just be us meeting him, it’ll be Otis too which I know is going to be so special. It gives me goosebumps thinking about it. 

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Over the last few days Otis has been waking up at 5:45 instead of 7:30 like normal and it’s made me remember how horrific sleep deprevation is. I think he’s preparing us for what’s to come, it’s like he secretly knows. Will I ever sleep again? AHHHH. Pray I have a sleeper. I feel really guilty talking about my worrys about baby no2 because it almost sounds like I’m not happy which isn’t true. But I think these emotions are really normal and love being honest and sharing things with you all, I hope some of you can relate and feel better knowing that you’re not alone. 

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Lots of love, Hattie xxx

3 thoughts

  1. I was the same with my secound and when the baby was here i felt so emothional and sad in a way that it just wasnt me and my son anymore , but i just tried my hardest to try make him feel special to
    once the baby was here , i was letting him rub the babys back , and just trying to let him feel part of looking after him to and he loved it , but after a few weeks pass and my secound son would be a sleep i would get some crafts ect out to do with him and that allways made me feel better

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  2. I’m feeling and going through the exact same thing, I’m currently 8 weeks pregnant with my second child, Only finding out last week that I had once been blessed again, I had all the emotions run through me over and over again. My son is 4 years old, He’s still my one love and my beautiful baby, I feel guilty and worrying the same and he starts school in September, I’m constantly worrying or over thinking what life will be like next year when I have to juggle doing the school run and having myself and baby number 2 ready, with saying that, I am also excited to be adding to my family and having all the joys that come with it, but I guess after reading your blog it’s nice to know it’s normal to feel this way and there are others feeling the same. Plus I’m also terrified of putting on more weight than I did with my first.

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  3. I defiantly understand how your feeling I was exactly the same. And if I’m been honest it got worse for me when my second baby arrived the torn feeling between them both was unbearable. He’s now six weeks old but I do feel guilty everyday that there both not getting 100% attention but like you said there’s only one of me. My first born is 21 months so still a baby himself but he’s taken it really well. It is getting easier everyday though 😄 Luckily were in the same boat with our partners thank goodness there not gone all day.
    Take care, Chantelle x

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